the 5 o'clock news

should show everyones deepest, darkest sin.

the worst of the worst.

jumbo trons playing back your most emberrasing moments like a movie.

what would we do if we couldnt hide from each other?

how would people live if they had no choice but to be honest?

i repent.

i repent.

of my pursuit of americas dream.

i repent.

of living like i deserve anything.

my house, my fence, my kids, my wife, in our suburb where were safe and white.

of parading my liberty. of paying for what i get for free.

of the way i believe that im living right.

i repent.

of trading sins for others that are easier to hide.

of judging by a law that even i cant keep.

of wearing righteousness like a disguise, to see through the planks in my own eye.

i repent.

of trading truth for false unity.

of confusing peace and idoletry.

of caring more of what they think, than what i know of what we need.

i repent.

of domesticating you until you look just like me.

i am wrong and of these things i repent.

i repent.

the metaphor will suffice for now.

making attempts at finding good in people.

anne frank was a liar.

so. lifes ok.

i started a new job at guitar center. which is really cool. adds stress but also adds happiness and a feeling of worth.

i want to find a way.

GET AWAY FROM OPRAH!

oklahoma was fun. 8 of us slept in one hotel room. saw the oklahoma city memorial. neat deal. i dont like the government either but i dont think it is worth taking lives over. eh. invalid letter department.

met alot of cool new people, played at a venue that reminded me of the old rev room. but bigger, and not as good of a sound system.

eh. i still. miss her.